Sleep? Are you there?

I have been saying a lot. I just want to put it out into the universe… pregnancy should be the most restful time in life.  

I will likely never get to sleep in again.  Kikka is almost one and getting busier everyday.  First it was the frequent feedings, then the random rolling over, then the random falling over while trying to sit, then the crawling and reaching new uncharted places, then the cruising and reaching more uncharted territory and now the walking is upon us! 
I constantly watch her like a hawk, but after a year I am beat. Also because I was exhausted going in after a tiring pregnancy and equally tiring labor and delivery.  Even when she sleeps the whole night I am still tired.

It should really be that you are cocooned in constant comfort and an extended period of relaxation when pregnant.  That should be what pregnancy means. Everyone should pamper you with treats and massages. This way when the baby arrives you feel better about the chaos and lack of …everything.  You would say to yourself…”well, I had 9 months of deep relaxation and restfulness and now I am ready for motherhood.”  And when times were hard with your new little human you could think back to that wonderful time when you slept to your hearts content. 

Just imagine that…

Pregnancy: 1st Trimester 

I like to say that the first trimester is the worst because you have all these symptoms but are usually not ready to tell people about the pregnancy as yet.

 So you sit there and silently suffer and pray that you pull off hiding the need until you’re ready to share.

The morning sickness began after the first month for me. Definitely by the 8th week I was nauseous 100% of the time and barely able to have any meals.  It would worsen during my over an hour commute and had me carrying carsick bags everywhere I went.  It was all day sickness from the beginning.  Although it was worse in the morning.

I had to switch up my routine to accommodate my all day sickness.  I would take showers at night so I could have the morning to be sick and make time for the snails pace I had adopted.  Then I began to religiously eat  breakfast at home first thing every day. To skip that step would increase my nausea tenfold.

My ​abdominal pain continued and ended up lasting for around 9 weeks before it started being less severe but somehow more frequent. It would give way to excruciating pelvic pain in the second trimester.  Other than that I had the normal symptom of tiredness that most women feel in the 1st trimester.  So tired I would lay in the couch every chance I got.  Between the severe exhaustion and nausea/vomiting I as rarely seen off the couch unless I was at work.